The opening line of Tillie Olsen's short story, "I Stand
Here Ironing," is a metaphor for the ambivalence of the mother about her skills as a
parent and about the future of her oldest daughter when asked about Emily's recent
behavior. Absolutely central to the plot is this metaphor of ironing, as the mother
attempts to straighten out the problems of her often uneasy relationship with her
daughter. This effort is performed in much the same manner as she irons: in a
stream-of-consciousness the mother moves backward and forward in time repeatedly
establishing a pattern of poverty and abandonment.
This
self-examination of the mother also involves her attempts to understand. For instance,
she speaks of Emily's desire to stay home from school when she had to go to nursery
school, the "parking place" for children:
"She always had a reason...never a direct
protest, never rebellion. I think of of our others in their three-,
four-year-oldness--the explosions, the tempers, the denunciations, the demands--and I
feel suddenly ill. I pput the iron down. What in me demanded that goodness in her?
And what was the cost, the cost to her of such
goodness?"
Coupled with the
mother's confessions and self-examination is an admiration of Emily's resilience and
strength. So, even though there are wrinkles in their relationship and in Emily's
personality, and the mother concludes that she will never "total it all"; nevertheless,
her daughter, "a child of her age, of depression, of war, of fear," has much to her.
Concluding with the controlling metaphor of ironing, the mother urges the school
counselor to
help her to know--help make it so there is
cause for her to know--that she is more than this dress on the ironing board, helpless
before the iron.
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