How might Winston Smith be portrayed as a coward throughout 1984?

I in no way see Winston as a coward, I hate it when people
try to portray him as a coward, he really was not! I think Winston was a boy (I think he
would have allowed me to say that he was a boy, cause I'm now of the same age as he was,
and I see myself pretty much as a girl)) pretty much in despair, he suffered from a bad
health (varicose ulcer, and I think the book made it clear that he had also something
painful in his shoulder) and despite that he also cared for his fellow human beings in
that society, remember he helped a lot the Parson's woman, tasks that he did not like to
do, (he did not like to use his hands) but that he did anyway, also the people around
him turned easily towards him when they were in need for anything, to my opinion he was
a really nice guy! He was a very thoughtful guy who was not willing to act easily, but
that's only normal, he wanted to change society for the better but couldn't do that,
society was too strong, by the way why should he have responded to the woman who said
she might be his mother, in that society there might have been hundreds of mothers from
the same age of Winston's mother, with the surname of Smith, meeting one of such a
woman, did not oblige him to speak to her, I think he was really tired of his life, and
also the same question why should he have bothered to speak to Julia, if she wasn't the
one who made the first approach, he wasn't obliged to speak to
her!